To Face, unafraid...

The other day I was brushing my teeth, minding my own beeswax, when it hit me:  "Winter Wonderland" is a deep song!  Not because of its musings on sleigh bells, walking in the snow, or dreaming by the fire, but for this line:

"To face, unafraid, the plans that we made..."

My brushing slowed as a stark realization dawned on me.  For all my outward confidence, for all my lofty goals and dreams and my penchant for planning, I could not recall a single substantial plan that I had faced without some amount of fear.  Ranging from trepidation to outright terror, my tendency to worry has been a blight on my plans for as long as I can remember.  It doesn't stop me from carrying out my plans, but I believe that it does prevent me from doing so in a truly Godly (i.e. joyful, loving, wise) manner.

This is not acceptable to me.  How can I put energy, love and effort into making my dreams a reality if some part of me is holding back, using up a portion of my energy toward what-ifs and fearful mental feedback loops?  I want to live fully, using each day as another wonderful gift...an opportunity to become ever more Me, a manifestation of the Divine.  What is there to fear in that process?

The lower parts of ourselves, the parts that crave habit and familiarity while resisting changes (these are the pelvic and mental energies), are what keep us from fully actualizing our birthright - to open our heart centers, illuminating our lives with the Divine spark within.  Allowing myself to succumb to the fear that the lower nature offers me is to allow myself to be diverted from my projected coarse - toward the Divine Itself.  The fear is a distraction, not necessarily a warning to turn back.  When we have the opportunity to truly embody love, peace, truth and wisdom, of course the mind (ego) and pelvic force (animal nature) are going to resist, because it is they that stand to change the most!

I seek this change.  I work toward it daily, and strive to further my journey with every breath.  I will no longer allow the squatter of fear to take up residence within my life.  I have faced some of my worst fears.  The fact that I feared such an outcome did not prevent it from happening - and let's not fool ourselves - it did not better prepare me to face that outcome, either.  (Click the links if you aren't familiar with my personal stories over the past few years, or some of that might not make sense).  Worry and fear are not conducive to creating new life, and since we are daily creating our own lives I feel it is time to put out the call:

Let go of fear!  It does not serve your potential nor your goals, whatever they may be.  Let it go and unfold your life!

We all know pain, heartache and upset.  We all have wounds and scars.  The question is not whether you have been hurt (or, as we're speaking of fear which is future-oriented, whether you will be hurt).  The question is how you will handle each moment...no matter what it brings.  Will you embrace your lessons, great and small, joyful and sad?  Or will you allow the knocks of life to minimize you, making you ever more armored against life?  We are blessed with the gifts of self-awareness and self-determination, so it's up to us.

Guess what I choose!

Comments

[Mary]

Layers and layers and layers of wisdom in the post, Kelly. Thank you. Ironically, I think we get so comfortable with living with fear that it is fearful to leave it and so we continue to create it. We don't fully appreciate the burden it is until we put it down.